New Year Eve 2012

Hey guys , I'm kinda disappointed with myself . All thing revolve around me seems to give me false hope  & I'm the one getting blame . Here I am sitting in front of my laptop which supposedly had reach Kedah , Kulim long time ago . Because of family I've disappoint my friends , because of my friend I'm the one to blame from my family . Ironic eh . Me & Jia Yew plan to go to Penang to have a trip also celebrating new year at Hard Rock Cafe . As I mention earlier in my previous post , we will be staying at my aunt's house . Hotel is the last options for us . We're not that rich :P Anyway my sis agree in bringing him & I to Penang . She told me 9.30pm we'll be leaving . Now its 2.57am , 3 minutes later I have to wake her up . She say she's tired from work & told me she wanted to rest . What can I say ,  she's my dearly sister I can't be harsh on her & not be understanding . My mom & dad scolded me saying what kind of schedule is this . Don't think for yourselves , what about Jia Yew . In my parents view ,  they will feel ashamed . Mama , papa I know but what can i do . There's no ticket cause its late at night . They say Malay's like to be late & all . I can't argue but to just say yes . Plus , I have to apologize to my parents & Jia Yew . In this point no one understands me get it . In my mind , there's this voices keep on saying go ahead blame your sis . But i couldn't . Now i realize AGAIN why I DON'T NEED FAMILY & FRIENDS . I could have taken the bus & go but my sis say lets go together . Now i feel the hope that is given to you & taken back from you . You feel sort of agree , lost your innocent , sad , moody & more . Because of this my new year eve went bad . I can't blame anyone but myself . Right just now my feeling & emotion was feel with thrill & full of hope . Now , those things are getting colder , darker & fading away . My aunt call say , relax you gotta understand others . FOR HOW LONG !!! HOW LONG I NEED TO CARE & UNDERSTAND OTHERS! WHEN PEOPLE GONNA START UNDERSTANDING ME!! Now Jia Yew is sleeping heavily on my bed , I look at him i feel so guilty . I told his parent we were going on a family trip . They were happy & relief now , they will say i break that promise , I'm a lire . These will effect me not my sis or my parents . ME!! YOU GET IT!! I just hope after i wake up my sis things will be better . What I'm looking forward in 2012 , MORE FALSE HOPES PLEASE . That's all for now readers . FUCK OFF!!!