26 June 2010

The story actually happen just today , i wake up on 1.00pm . My mom did woke me up at 8.00am telling that she is going to Negeri Sembilan , Seremban to visit my grandmother cause her heart is weak and pain . I was like still sleepy and i was like its ok mum you can go without me so i continue sleeping . Also my mum did not go to the progress report day and i was abit realief . But then after an hour , my mom come into my room again and i thought she was already on her way to Seremban . She said Midzi your grandmother pass away , i was like NO!! My mum was rushing so she ask me to go back sleep . When i wake up , i quickly call my mum from Seremban and ask is it a dream only or what . She said she is now at the hospital , so its true shes gone . Mum said yes she is and you take care of yourself at KL . I actually can imagine my mum's siblings crying and more things which happen right there . I'm happy my mom didn't go to that progress report thing , so when teacher ask why your mum didn't come i can say she is busy or forget the time or slept late , but i dont want to say its because my mum is at my grandmother's funeral . Now im sitting in front of my laptop feeling empty and not knowing what to do next . We the one who is still alive in this world should move one with our life , but when you continue living with fun and joy i kinda feel guilty . Worst part is i cannot be with her for her last final breath and thats why i feel empty i cant even said anything . Al-Fatihah to my grandmother and R.I.P " nek non " .